For truth, For love, For my desire

I cleaned I finally washed my Gross hair after not washing it for daysss
I went to the Library returned my books and got Invisable Monsters
Im trying to read all the chuck palahniuk books
Target and best buy didn’t happen poop
my mom didn’t feel good so she wasn’t going to drive me
and I didnt want to take the bus there

I need to start doing more things instead of sitting home all day watching movies
If this is what my life is going to be I will be so disappointed in myself

These are my Plans for tmrw lets hope I can actually get up and do them
Clean up and bit in my room Mop and Sweep
Go to the Library return my book and get the one I have on old before its to late
Go to target and/or best buy I need new headphones and
I want to pick up some cds that Ive been to lazy to get.
Maybe go to Home Depot to get Paint Samples
Maybe go to the queens mall since I really do need jeans badly
I have 45 bucks left on my Visa Gift card woo

I hate chapped lips so much ahaha I woke up with my lips chapped as a mutha fuck idk why but its annoying Im running out of Burt’s i need to hit up target and get some more

I need to get so much stuff for my room for when i redo it its kinda redic
I need  A New bed frame and mattress , side tables, comp desk, new pillows bed sets and all that jazz I cant wait to get this on the road because I’m dying to get my room back to the way I wanted it to be

I also need to go shopping really bad. I need new v necks all my white ones have had it. Im prob going to spend 300 bucks getting new shirts and hoodies ahaha
Im also in need of jeans since none of the ones I have  A) dont fit me the way Iwant anyone B)have holes in them opps and I made the promise not to wear leggings everyday of my life

I also need to start working out again. Ive gained way to much weight over 2008.I dont feel good in my body anymore

And I guess I didnt get the job at American Apparel im pretty bummed about it
I really would’ve liked working there I guess I was not  up to there standards.
Time to try something else and if that all fails im working at McDonald’s .
Since I really need bamboozle money and start saving for warped tour.

Valencia at the Donkey today woot
Not happy about having to take the bus to the train though since my mom left
Ill update this more when I get back

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I was to lazy to update last night when I got home so Ill so it now lol
I hate the people in Li with a burning Passion seriously
I do I almost got into a fight with some dude who didn’t understand you are in a fucking crowd at a show don’t stand there while everyone is having a good time and try to push me out the way to protect you girlfriend. If your going to fucking go to a Valencia show and be in the crowd don’t stand there like asshole Because I will fucking push you right back. I’m deff not scared of any dude tbh. Other than that I had a good time those boys always put on a good show and there Genuine people . They have become on of my fav bands and it makes me happy that I can see them over and over and never ger bored.

Another Day at home Playing with My niece, talking online
watching Jon and Kate plus 8 I love that Family 
Now im sad because Joe isnt in the Audition anymore
To many funny memories with that dude from Pac tour and Gk Bam Fest
I will miss him rapping for me =[

Valencia at the Donkey Tmrw =]

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No more trips to Wawa for beer pong cups,
and him rapping in front of churches, and no more Spring Break.

I took this from a bulltien Moriah posted and it made me think about how good pac tour was and it was worth the trips on busses with Allie

I sat at home all day Watching Movies and Rock of love wow how exciting

Just woke up from a nap. A nap that shouldn’t took place knowing myself that I have bad sleeping problems now im not going to sleep later on tonight its going to be annoying. This week is most likely going to be me sitting around staring at my phone hoping American Apparel calls me. Thursday most likely going to Valencia at the Donkey. I hate long Island shows I just hate that place period. The people there are beyond annoying. Time to go watch endless amounts of movies online till I cant watch anymore.

I shall be up in you today ahaha
Ill up this when I get back

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So Maryland was pretty lol and fun Left around 12:30 got there 4ish waiting around Kiros showd up a lil late. Decided to go with Briana so she can get her Tattoo. I almost got one it was to tempting but I didnt lol . Went back the venue well it was actually a church place but it was cool they had Rock band 2 and stuff. Played Paramore and Panic ahaha I did vocals obvi. They show was good it self. The people who live there are beyond weird and some are just really annoying. you can tell we were deff not from there. Hit the road again around 930 and got home around 1230 it wasnt a bad ride home. We just Jammed to the new  A day to remember to keep awake ahaha that Album is so good I can listen to it over and over again.

I need a nap But i cant because then I wont be able to sleeps later
Nothing like chilling at home on a sat watching movies
Tmrw Im going to Marland with farb to see Kiros
were nuts I tell ya Cant wait for the 4 hour drive ahaha

I forgot to write this in my last update but w/e Ill do it here. So I’m starting this book
Basically what I’m doing is taking Blank Sketching book and getting diff band members to do something on a page draw write something meaningful or whatever they want. I’m going to try to Auction it off to help a organization out. I don’t know what I’m doing just yet though I’m planning it Lil by lil, Now I just have to go get a few books to have Handy

Im slowly getting ready Just Finished like month of Laundry that I left sitting In the corner. Teddy geiger later on I will update this when I get back

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Sooo Teddy today was pretty awkward since Ive only seen him a few times I wasn’t one a cool ones to know him well and be all up on his shit the whole time but other than that his new songs are pretty good. Me and Vicky had good laughs the whole time talking about how he is such a stoner you can see it in his eyes ahaha. After the show I attempted to take photo booth pictures with him but that was big Fail because the machine didnt want to take my money ahaha opps. Then me and Vicky wandered around the Lower east side looking at all the hott guys and cool bars. We made the conclusion that we need to hang down there more often ahaha. My Joints hurt so bad from all the cold its taken in the past few days ugh painful i must say.

Well today was some bit successful
Woke up at 8 got on the 4 train got into a fight with a lady who wouldn’t move so I can get through the train and not be stuck by a door when there was tons of space in the middle of the train. Train stops and stays at station forever. I Felt bad because Diane was waiting for me. Get to grand Central Finally and Diane left so I take the shuttle to the 1 train so I can finally get to Regis . Meet The girls at Starbucks. Get drinks then walk over to Regis. Now this is this mid fuck part. We are waiting there we watch them interview them for the tv that’s inside this abc building so we see there done we walk over to the way there suppose to exit. There vans are across the street so we look to see if anyone’s there we see no one. so were like ok then the gate opens and we see Joe and we wait to see what happens. I turn around to put my S.bucks up on the Flr and I look up and see like there ppl and security mention to Alisa and Diane. Then We turn back around to see Pete in the van staring at us Im like WTF IS GOING ON HERE. I have a feeling we were set up lol. Joe was the Distraction. So I guess they went out through the front. I don’t get how they walked across the street and us not even see them. Anyway we thought  Joe had left too cuz they put the Gate down but he actually didn’t. So we talked to him and stuff and told Alisa to go to school ahaha. Then me and Diane went to see where we can steal WiFi from. This was day 2 of trying to get fob Ga for the Ct show. Ended up taking a taxi to the Apple store because there was no Internet and getting the tickets early and getting GA for her and Alisa. I don’t get how the happen when yesterday was nuts when the tickets went on sale and ppl couldn get Flr seats. At Least that went right

Now im home about to go do laundry even though I really don’t want to. I hate it back there and im scared a rat or something is going to pop out ahaha.

Ive been up for more than 24 hours. I don’t know how Im typing this right now
Yesterday/Today  Me Alisa Diane and Kelly thought it would be cool to wait outside Nbc for the Conan Standby for Fobz. Diane’s train got in at 2am so I waited for her in Gc for like ever because I had to leave my house early. We meet up walk over to Nbc to meet with Alisa wait for Kelly to get there. Then the fun in the cold began. Im so fucked right now mt back legs everything hurts. Thank god the like Nbc Building was open we rotated ever like 15 min in and out the building to stay warm but it didn’t do good to my body. We were the only ones there till 6am when these guys showed up and one who had his fly down the whole time because he was a idoit. We hinted at it the whole time and even sang songs in   lady Gaga’s Pokerface. Around 905ish am the guy finally came out told s we were nuts but we were numbers 1-4 so it was a score. Kelly Diane and Me stayed together for a while Alisa had to go to school. Ended up being on the today show and getting 100 bucks for Answering a question right. I can tell you kathy lee is my new fav person. 1st she tells me that since im blk pr and a woman I should become prez and if i was Gay it would be even better ahahaha. And we discussed how much of a mess Aretha looked at the Inauguration. Kelly went back school for class and Me and Diane attepmted to get fob tickets for her and Alisa it was a big fail because the Assholes gave Alisa the wrong password. Tried figuring that shit out and gave up. Roamed around went to Fao played on the piano got me a ugly doll. Went back to Conan got into conan then i fell asleep during the whole thing until fob came on ahahah opps. After we waited around for them as usual. I may tell you those boys are still sweet no mater what. Day 2 is tmrw Regis thank god its just old people there. Now im home finally showered and washed my hair now im going to pass out

Today we will have our 1st black President Such a Great time in history. Ill update this again late if I decide to get off my butt and do something

Jan 18 2007 was a fucking amazing day 1st time I got to see zee cab and Alex wasn’t on his high horse and had good lol moments outside of highline being completely wasted losing and my fav beanie in the cobra crowd with steph. Oh and me and Erica interviewing Alex outside and I was drunk it me laughing the entire time because of it and ending my night in a cab with Alisa and a boy who waves a flag I miss that day more than anything It was good

Ill add pictures for a good laugh

Before I miss that beanie =[

After

I would post the Flag boy picture but its redic so id rather not

But anyway Today I went to my American Apparel open call. It wasn’t to bad other than we had to wait outside in the cold until we were called. I suck at interviews but it was pretty chill. Im praying I get the job. After that I went to Chipotle and treated myself to a burrito that I really couldn’t eat because it was huge. I forgot how bit there where. Then roamed around Union alone try to do some much needed shopping but needed buying nothing because Im so picky. Now im sitting at home watching Another Cinderella story I dont know why. This movie is beyond cheesy for my liking.

Tomorrow calls for hangs with the Farb in Yonkers and maybe doing some damage at the mall with my moms money =]