February 2009
I just got back from hanging with allie and the pain in my back hasnt gone away and its starting to freak me out every time I breath it hurts. Even when move suddenly I really need to get up and go to the doctor this week if its the last thing I do. I had fun today I got my passion fruit ice tea and had chinese nomm. Played iron chef and price is right on wii. Iron chef is such a work out I tell...
its 516pm Friday listening to mayday parade pretty much spent my entire week sitting at home pondering and feeling like shit. I spend all my time in my room with my ipod in my ears. I haven’t seen outside since last week. Lately I haven’t felt like myself idk why. I wanted to hang out with people but I guess no one is around to do anything. I really want Starbucks but its to far and I...
The Knitting Factory =[
I had many good times at the one in the city and saw many of the bands that are playing bigger places now there for the 1st time. Im sad there moving it after 14 years of it being right by soho down the block from chinatown so many funny memories there. Its always been one of my Favorite venues. Even though I did have some bad moments there ahaha im going to miss going there every day of my life...
Sick and tired of being sick and tired
No reference to tbs that’s just how I feel. I have a pounding headache for some reason. I woke myself up from almost falling asleep that would’ve been tragic because Its hard for me to go back to sleep after a nap. My naps tend to last for like 4 hours. I’m stressing over things that I shouldn’t be stressing over. April/May is just one big headache for me. I need to get out...
“Wake up from the drama scene, stick around it’ll bury me”
– Forever the sickest kids lyrics from Catastrophe
Monday night relaxing in bed eating oreos talking to people trying not freeze to death Looking for jobs still so I can save up for April not going anything prob until Mid March just so I don’t spend money I have to get a new Id if the nice person who finds my Id doesn’t mail it back to me Everything has been a repeat Have to wait till March 9 till all the good stuff comes back on
Spent my Sunday listening to old hit the lights then napping Now I’m watching the Oscars I’m beyond happy heath won he deserved it His family is so beautiful. Watching everyone in the audience give him a standing ovation was so wonderful
FEB 21
I didnt get to update yesterday but it was spent in Montclair Nj seeing the lovely boy of evny on the coast Had some boston market mac and cheese that was yummy then to ruin the night I some how manage to lose my id in the process of going into 7-11 im really pissed about this I dont have money to buy a new one right now
Im still sick im horse right now I sound a mess I dony enjoy it very much
its Friday I’m home I’m sick I feel like shit. I knew going out last night would be a bad idea since I was already feeling poopy but I really don’t care I had fun. Now I’m going to overdose on meds and Maybe make a Appt to go to the doc on Monday I’m scared since it will be a new doctors office Ive never been to and I hate getting blood taken
Sing it Loud/ This prov
Hitting up The Crocrock in Allentown tonight Update this when I get back
The weather sucked the show was fun Reunited with lovely people. Realized tons of things and put everything together in my head and notice how fucked people are and take advantage of everything including there friends. I don’t get it i would’ve exploded but I love to hold my composure now
did i really just wake up from napping. That was such a bad idea I’m going to be up forever now and my sleeping pattern is going to be fucked. I need to do something with myself I cant spend any more days sitting at home wasting away
I just realized how good the beginning 08 was Feb 16 I was in maryland hanging with Andrew and Moriah talking about life drugs and everything in between. We legit sat on the couch in soma for about a hour or so. That night was so funny since it was the last day of tour and everyone was out of there mind. There was major dance parties and pizza afterwards. I loved the cheap drinks there lol
feb 15 2008
Me and Allie took the Greyhound to philly after school for pac tour I somehow ended up completely wasted Had major dance glow stick parties and ended up going to wawa to get cups for beer pong ahaha Oh did I mention it was in a Church
Then all I remember is me puking in the bathroom at the bus station and waking up when we were half way home on the bus thinking wtf happen Then I had to wake up at...
Valentines day ?
I totoes forgot that was today its such a hallmark day that makes people feel like shit Never really cared for it Never had someone to share it with So My mom has always the best Valentine Well later Im spending it with my Gurlfran and were going to ihop ahah Were obvi the best Valentines oh and I got a valentine from Maloree in the mail so cute I miss her so much I need to get money so I can fly...
Sober house
I just sat and watched the newest epsiode its such a sad show It shows how drugs and alcohol can ruin someone so much and the people around them fighting something like that is like a demon with in yourself I never want to become one those people. Its heat breaking to see someone who has so much going for them just throw it all away just. I lost someone close to me because of there alcohol...
holy poop I think if i stepped outside right now the wind would just blow me right away I can hear it on my windows and im scared its going to blow them in or something Today call for me relaxing watching useless amounts of tv ha then trying to Knap my sisters laptop so I can watch Skins =]
Valentines day is like 2 days away I never really cared for it Never had a Valentine My mom will always be...
10:48pm
Watching the real world chilling its cold in my room Stayed home for the 1st time in like 4 days feels kinda good to be lazy sometimes
Woke up around 8 Met up with Harlee at Port Authority then went over to Bowery to wait in line for Lily Allen. We meet some lol new people while being there. The show was ok I guess. Shes a really cute girl in person and her outfits are amazing but her music is really bad. Ive always disliked her but I want to see for real if i could enjoy it ahahaha. Her fans are somewhat redic and annoying but...
Gone for the weekend
Going to the Mall shopping with Diane Going to her house Maybe getting tattoos Ptown tmrw for the cab and wtk
lata hoes
zee weekend iz hurr
why i typed that way idk why but anyway
today attempted to go shopping again ended up with a AAR cd New keyboard which im typing with rn and Black Flats wooo. This weekend should be fun if it goes right ahha
Tomorrow im going to the Mall with my mom then Dianes meeting me there and im staying at her place for the weekend Sunday were going to poughkeepsie for wtk the cab and so on
I hate this part
One thing I never talk about my grandfather and the only reason why im posting this is because I had a dream last night about him. Its something I never really talk about because till this day I still cant get over the fact that he isnt here with me. My grandfather was everything I had . When I was 5 he was taken away from me. I still remember me sitting on the stairs that night when the police...
942pm i hate shopping
I never thought I would say I hate shopping but at the Moment I really do I went on a journey to Find jeans that actually like fit me the way I want and i actually like and that failed so much. I ended up getting another hoodie and a vneck from AA bleh. Also to add I hate shopping in the winter so much. I hate having to lugg around in my coat then when I have to try things on its annoying to take...
1 i mean 3 22pm lol
Totes got side tracked when I was posting this because I was on the phone with Alisa and I forgot what i was going to post ahaha
But anyway My eyes are so bloodshot I got home around 130 and didn’t go to bed till like 3am and for some odd reason woke up at 930am
Last night was pretty fun Went out to meet up with everyone at Gramercy I can just say how horrrrrrible the millionaires are Idk...
126 pm
I fail Today is the latest I woke up in a while I need to get Back on my Normal Sleeping Pattern I am going to loose my Voice soon I have the worst sore throat ever I hate the snow now why has it snowed so much this winter it didn’t snow this much last year It blows
I’m maybe going to go Hang out around Gramercy Later on today Maybe Hit up the Cash Cash show I remember when i saw them...
424pm shitty
Thats how I feel Ive been so depressed lately. Everything isnt working out I feel like everything is just crumbling down on me little by little. I dont any type of structure in my life anymore. I spend my days at home watching movies and playing my with niece. Then I argue with my mom half the time because she doesnt understand anything I tell her. I love her to death but I dont think I can live...
Super What?
Superbowl not really a fan of football but I do like watching the Half time show I wish I had my Superbowl snacks So bored beyond bored I need something to do with myself Hopefully doing some job serching tomorrow
Me and Allie have been looking at these amazing apts in Edgewater Nj there so freaking sweet. I want to move there so bad. It has such a perfect view and just everything about it.I can...
